what if.

// Thursday, April 10, 2008

4/10/2008 10:02:00 PM

HEY

you KNOW TODAY THAT

throughout the long lessons in school,

i am getting sleepy, all the times!!

instead of waking a pig, Anni,who sat beside me,

she NOW kept waking me up to stay awake in order not to miss any lessons.

I KEPT FORCING MYSELF TO DRAG MY EYES OPEN!

even force Anni to PINCH me to stay awake.

BUT my skin even felt sleepy and NUMB.

all her hard pinchs on my skins wont work.

i kept sleeping all the time!

finally, the math lesson was over, had to rush to toilet to wash my sleepy eyeballs.

HAHA

FINALLY, AWAKE, but the lessons was boring.

falling sleepy again.

HAHAHAHA
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so yeah, when am i going to be FULLY AWAKE?

i just wish to live near school,

or even rent a room in school

EVEN THOUGH THERE'S STORIES ABOUT GHOSTS

HAUNTING AROUNG IN SCHOOOL!

BECAUSE, ITS' SO MUCH BETTER THAN GOING TO SCHOOL FOR HOURS AND BACK HOME FOR HOURS.

those HOURS are so WASTED!!!!

I feel like SCREAMING TO GOD FOR HELP!!

why why why why why why why

must i suffer more than other friends.

they are so forunate to live so near, some have cars to fetch them to school,

i hate being the first person to wake up damn early.

even the taxi drivers who i took cabs when i was late, pitied me.

i kept saying I DUNNO when they complained on why i choose this FARAWAY SCHOOL!

yes yes yes yes lah, i chose the wrong school.

I REGRETTED.

but

my friends are there.

couldnt bear to abandon them halfway.

therefore, gonna to study there for 2 more years, including this year.

OH GOD, PLEASE LEAD A BEAUTIFUL WAY FOR ME

instead of HARDSHIPS,

please get rid of the horrible early times that i hate to wake up,

and give my poor mum to rest more instead of calling me up for school,

and making nice breakfast for me EVERYDAY.

i gonna to finish secondary in 2 years time,

so that MUM WILL NOT WAKE UP EARLY AGAIN!

*sob, had been crying for my poor mum.

she is turning 40 this year*

getting wrinkles day by day.

o god, let her have a peaceful & romantic life with papa.

and if i work real hard to earn BIG MONEY,and IF i earn alot of money

i gonna to give my parents 20 k a month!

SERIOUSLY, I WANT TO DO IT!

for my own saving, maybe 5-8k in the bank,

spending might be 2-3k a month!

HAHAHA, thats' one cunning part of my dream!

glad they have a NICE HONEYMOON in EQYPT for this week!!

FAMILY = F.ATHER A.ND M.OTHER I. L.OVE Y.OU!!!

hahahahaha, sorry. i know i am pissing you off.

but, its' facts mahh..!